Disclaimer: If you have issues with accepting other people's beliefs, and want to keep your respect of me, you might want to turn away now.

BTW, don't forget I have a 20k kiriban coming up. Catch it.

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I've officially decided this recently.

After months of thinking it over and over and over...

I don't mind if people have a religion- it can make some people better people, it helps some in grieving and desperate, it gives some people community and friendship. I was involved with it for a few years, but...

But it's not for me.

I don't need a god who will either reward or punish me for believing in an old book and accepting every word as fact, even though it was written by man, and that I don't agree with the violence and dogmatic indoctrination... Not to mention, it instantly gives you the idea that at least 2/3 of the entire living world will go to hell, if a whole lot more...

I am an atheist. I am a secular humanist- I'm not evil for not believing in god, logically, I just don't think a god is important or even very likely. I think that humans do have an obligation to help others and be kind to others, we are a species that has to survive in a strange and twisted world, all we have is each other.

I've only told one real-life friend, who is a pagan, and she accepted it, too. I don't know if I should tell my mom; she is quite loosely religious, we never go to church, but she was raised strictly. I'm not sure what she would think. I might wait a long time before telling her.

But I don't plan on telling all of my friends, I know to a lot of them, church is important, and I worry if they knew, they might get upset with me and reject me. I'll wait until later, figure out what they really believe before I even think of telling them I don't believe in god.

If you still like me as a friend, that is wonderful. If you now hate me, that is fine too, but I feel sorry for you. I'm just tired of not telling anyone.

That's a big number.

Catch it, and I'll make you a kiriban with plenty of bells and whistles and color of something of your choice (Save there's 2-D reference and/or you give me artistic license, and it's not extremely complicated, of course.)

Get a Screen-Capture of the 20K and note me with it.


EDIT: Oh, and if no one comes forth with a 20K sceen-cap in, say, 3 days, I'll ask for anyone who caught 19,999 OR 20,001, and so-on-and-so-forth if need be.

I'm gonna go to art school!

I got my acceptance letter today. :3


I'm excited and a little bit nervous- gotta travel far to get there, have to get all the affairs in order, too.

Well, things are returning to normal, and then some. My grades have gotten back up now that everything I'd been missing for the 6 days I missed school (I was gone for 4 days of vacation, then soon after 2 for funeral/grievance leave)

My sudden cold is starting to fade. Our finances are rather settled and we're not in debt for the funeral, thanks to the help of all the sympathy cards I've received.

my ex-boyfriend was trying to be helpful- but at this point, I want to return to normal, not cry more for show. He tries too hard sometimes...


But, there is plenty of good news: One of which is I gotta work on my Man-voice, because I got the main part in the Senior Class Play! It's a male part, and I'm surprised: I was apparently so good they didn't cast one of the few guys who tried out for the role! (Admittedly, only one guy is perhaps a good enough actor for the role, but he had no experience in plays, and the role I have has 300 lines!)

The Drama teachers told me only a bit ahead of time because one: They wanted to see if I would be comfy with playing a man (I said as long as I don't have to kiss a girl, it's fine!), and two: the play does deal a bit with suicide, and they thought it might be too close to home with me. Though it is a bit strange for me, I gave them the go-ahead. Mostly because the play is about the main character realizing how wonderful his life is.

I find it funny, though- I'm more worried on playing a convincing male than anything else. I'm not very masculine-looking. But I am tall, and I have that Scandinavian style of face that is a bit stronger-looking sometimes, not too mention I do not have a squeaky voice, either... We'll see how this goes.

Heya, guys. I'm doing decently.

A lot of hugs this week, and making up for lost time. Been tired a lot.

But homecoming is over with- it's been a good year thus far, even though I'm not doing as nicely in my classes as I wish I were. I should be getting them back up again before the end of the marking period. Mostly from missing work and even a bad test or two.


I find it strange my boss is going to be at my Dad's memorial service- but apparently she knew my family quite a while ago.

Even my teachers have been giving me hugs occasionally.

I can't say it doesn't help a bit, though.

I just want this whole ordeal to be over with by now.

It seems things have been going back to normal, even though most of my friends now know my Dad has passed away.

Even a girl who I've had a miff with has said "sorry". A few years ago, she lost her dad right in front of her, and we had an argument- it ended with the words "You don't know what I've been through" being said by her towards me. Well, if that isn't now bad irony, I don't know what it is.